Hey, I am a university student.
SUICIDE! The word suicide does get everyone’s attention and yet all the stigma.. are making people that need a lot of care not to seek help.
As a suicide attempter myself, I feel lonely at all times. I feel that everyone don’t understand me.
I often want a full stop in every single things I do. I need answers but life isn’t that way. It’s full of mystery. Yes, I hate it and I am very upset of the world.
All the pain… I wanted it to stop it so badly. But thinking of my loved ones, it’s so chaotic inside… that stop me from suicide again.
Well, not only that.
I’ve been searching ways to die comfortably. From jumping off the building to hanging on the rope.
Yes I found one. But I didn’t do it.
Why? Because I know I am way more stronger than that. I can do it.
And you can do it do! You can survive, just like me.
When I have the urge to die, I will try to calm down.
I seek help from therapist.
I keep myself busy at all times.
Although people are still pointing fingers at me but hey trust me, seek help will make you feel even better.
It’s been a long journey and I am in a process from healing.