A-Journey: “HOLY F**KING SHIT WHAT IS GOING ON EVER I AM NOT QUALIFIED FOR ANYTHING!!”

“HOLY F**KING SHIT WHAT IS GOING ON EVER I AM NOT QUALIFIED FOR ANYTHING!! WAIT DONT I HAVE SOMETHING DUE TOMORROW!!! I HAVE SO. MUCH. TO. DO. AND ABSOLUTELY NO TIME TO DO A SINGLE THING THIS IS TOO MUCH EVERYTHING IS COMING TOO FAST AND IN TOO LARGE OF AMOUNTS!! I SHOULD START ON THAT THING TOMORROW BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE TO START I SHOULD JUST SIT HERE AND STRESS ABOUT IT!”~ my brain, with nothing due and absolutely nothing to do besides ‘relax’. this is my anxiety.

Adapted from: http://images.medicaldaily.com/sites/medicaldaily.com/files/2014/12/17/decision-making_0.jpg

Adapted from: http://images.medicaldaily.com/sites/medicaldaily.com/files/2014/12/17/decision-making_0.jpg

It could be a Saturday in the middle of summer and my mind will flash with school projects that make me go ‘oh shit when is that due!?’ or my favorite: ‘Wait, we aren’t in school anymore. Which means you probably got a zero on it for not doing it’.

Adapted from: http://i.huffpost.com/gen/1080095/images/o-WORK-STRESS-facebook.jpg

Adapted from: http://i.huffpost.com/gen/1080095/images/o-WORK-STRESS-facebook.jpg

Spoiler alert: all grades have already been entered, and it was done on time. And for my next trick, I’ll show you a visual representation of my brain when I’m in public/ somewhere with quite a few people I don’t know:

Adapted from: https://i.ytimg.com/vi/LMaFXzVK2zY/hqdefault.jpg

Adapted from: https://i.ytimg.com/vi/LMaFXzVK2zY/hqdefault.jpg

“aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAF**KINEEDTOGETOUTWHATTHEF**KISGOINGOOOOOOONNNNYOUREINEVERYONESWAYOHGREATNOWYOURESTANDINGINTHECORNERANDSTARINGLIKEAPSYCHOYOUARENOTQUALIFIEDFORTHISASDFGHJKLLAPAJSHSJSLAFJGWIPWSPKDNXJXSOJSKALALAAAAA”

Adapted from: https://www.helpguide.org/images/anxiety/scared-woman-looking-out-window-500.jpg

Adapted from: https://www.helpguide.org/images/anxiety/scared-woman-looking-out-window-500.jpg

Yeap. But that’s mostly in small places with people. Like a coffee shop which sucks hard because I love the coffee shop aesthetic. Thank you and goodnight.

From: Ashlyn

*Personal note from MY Psychology team: One of our members had a similar experience of panic attack, it does show similarity with the experience described above. It feels disconnected with your brain and body, your heart might pump very fast and your thought is just so worried for ‘nothing’. That experience is totally unpleasant. 

* This is a series of personal experiences of anxiety disorders collected from the audiences of MY Psychology. The author of this journey has given MY Psychology to publish his / her experience on social media to increase the awareness about anxiety disorder. 

 

 

 

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