A-Journey: “Anxiety’s like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but it doesn’t get you very far.”

Between sixth and ninth grade, I would stay home because I just simply couldn’t go to school.

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Walking down those halls, seeing all those other people, getting more work to add to the ever-growing pile—it was all too much for me. I couldn’t even participate in gym, I was scared of what all these other people thought of me and my body. I was scared to go out in public without a friend with me.

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Living was just daunting, terrifying, like climbing Mt. Everest without any equipment. I couldn’t do it. In the summer between freshman and sophomore year and after a short period of anorexia, I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and got a prescription for antidepressants.

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Am I better now? Yes. I can function as a regular teen now, whatever a regular teen is. What do I have to say to people who think anxiety is all in my head? You’re right, but not in the way you think you are.

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Anxiety is in my head, and it made my life hell. It’s a real thing and I couldn’t help it. You can’t just wish away mental disorders. It doesn’t work like that, and it never has. *drops mic*

 

From: Izzy E-W

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