Recovery Journey #3: Cul de Sac

Hey, I am a university student. SUICIDE! The word suicide does get everyone’s attention and yet all the stigma.. are making people that need a lot of care not to seek help. As a suicide attempter myself, I feel lonely at all times. I feel that everyone don’t understand me. I often want a full […]

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Journey #6: Null & Void

When it is really bad, I don’t know what to do. It feels like I am on repeat. All the thoughts. All of them seem to haunt me even when I am in a “good mood.” And they all seem reasonable, but they are things that I can do nothing about. I feel helpless to […]

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Journey #5: Mind & Body

As an elite athlete, my life revolves around training and competing. I train 6 hours a day, and participate in all sorts of world ranking events. However, 2015 is when I hit my all time low. I was on a roll, winning all competitions and training my heart out to get a spot for the […]

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Journey #13: Depression & Anxiety – Fight Poison with Poison

Depression & Anxiety – Fight Poison with Poison Fight Poison with Poison  (Chinese pinyin: yi3 du2 gong1 du2) This is a Chinese idiom which literally means combat poison with poison. Evil must be driven out by evil. The principle is often used in Chinese’s medicine. I used this principle to handle the following condition: ·         Unable to […]

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Journey #4: We Need to Talk About This

I was diagnosed with depression at 16 but I’ve depression since I was 10 years old. It’s a crippling disease and it’s so difficult to live with. There are days when I’m surrounded by friends and feel alone, then my thoughts get worse at thinking that if I was gone they would all be happier. […]

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Journey #3: Forgotten Battles

I may have not been diagnosed with depression but I have definitely felt way more lows than highs, especially in the past couple weeks. I am a high school student who has to deal with homework, assignments and assessments at the same time as dealing with social, physical and other aspects of my life. Once, […]

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Journey #12: Painted Blue

The isolation engulfed my conscious. The silent befriends with me. It creeps into my life and stays with me. My world was in slow motion and painted in grey-white tiers. The whole world was cornering me as I was standing in the center. The issues and problems looked so huge and tall. My father was […]

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Journey #11: Where Do We Go From Here?

Do you know the feeling when you’ve found your new favorite song and would have the eargasm that’s so great that wont stop singing in your mind? that feeling is when you know, for sure that depression has left you for the moment that your mind is clear, that you feel that you are finally […]

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“DE Project”

As most of you would have known by now, mental illnesses have gain increasing attention as one of the major forms of illnesses to affect our population. Multiple media news outlets have already commented on the topic to show how this previously hidden epidemic, that most of us have shied away from due to the […]

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Journey #10: What We Can’t See Sometimes Hurts Us

Depression itself is a processs and if I were to talk about it, I do not know where to begin in fact. But perhaps, the information that would be helpful for the public to understand our situation is to speak out our mind when we are under the rumination or cycle of depression. When my […]

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