A-Project: “God didn’t do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?” – unknown

In my everyday life, seems nothing wrong with me. I have a family who supports me throughout in any way / thing I decided to do. I belong to a religious community which remind me how grateful I am for being in this world and knowing God. My friends who are cheering for me, know me for who I really am.

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Happiness attacks me every time when I think about it. Most of the people considered me as having a strong personality, but deep inside I feel nothing is within me. I may look like a smart person due to having eye glasses (scenario in my surroundings) but I am not that kind smart person.

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In reality, I’m not good in English, Mathematics and many more things. I am a short chubby girl. I have a lot of scars. Sigh. I often don’t understand myself. I know what I want, but I don’t know how doing it. I am very shy ever since when I was a child. I tend not to speak at all, for no one will know that I am here. I don’t want to be the center of attraction (in the outside, I am loudly person). It stresses me a lot.

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When everything is wrong and I want to open / discuss it , people don’t pay much attention as they think I can handle all the shortcomings. Perhaps because I graduated in BS Psychology and thinking that I don’t need help or I don’t need anyone. Maybe, that’s one of disadvantages of being a Psychology major / student.

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Until one day, I decided to face all the negatives inside of me. I started with reading bible, dwelling on positive quotes/messages/stories, doing recreational activities (sports, music, anything that could help me to be better). Even though people don’t really understand me, I endured it. Endured it until you realized that you don’t need someone just to feel you are special or valued. All you need is your self. Your entire self.

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Its been a great opportunity for people like me to share my story. I may not have an anxiety disorder or phobia or in worst situation, but I know, one time in my life, I felt it. I hope people with anxiety disorder or phobia will find their way to overcome it.

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To My Psychology, thank you for doing this kind of project. Praying that society will be fully aware about the difficulties of a person who is having mental illness or phobias. I am currently preparing for my board exam as registered Psychometrician. Your page help me a lot in many ways. To God be the Glory!

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From: Dyeni

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